I seriously wonder what is wrong with me!
Literally I go to BYU.
The dating capital of the world and i have been on a total of 3 dates my whole freshman year!
Some of you reading this literally are thinking
(i can hear you now..)
"you are only 19, chill!!"
but if you saw how many 19 year olds are getting
married right now you too would think i am a freak!
i seriously find myself thinking....
I am not pretty enough!
I am not smart enough!
should i like sports more?
i'm not outgoing enough!
i am not skinny enough!
all what it all boils down to is me feeling lik
e.....i am not enough?
I see girl and girl all different.
short. tall. thin. fat. blonde. brunette. short hair. long hair. tan. white. sporty. girly. blue eyes. brown eyes.
and they ALL have boy friends...
literally it is beginning to feel like i am the only one who doesn't have a special someone.
When did it become...If you aren't dating someone you are a loser?
To be honest i would love to have someone love me and get to love them in return.
someone to share all these moments with in my life.
don't get me wrong i still have standards for the guys i date i wouldn't just go out with the next joe blow because i haven't been out on a date in a while but i would like to feel some kind of interest from some normal guy. someone who has had experience dating girls.
and then you read blogs like this from guys who apparently are just dating all the wrong girls and you wonder....why can't you be dating me??
I would never do that to you. I am different!
Why can't guys see that???
You know this quote::::
Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.
...........well i guess i am still just waiting for that guy to come along and pick me.......
Until then...I will contine to be happy just being me!
Until then...I will contine to be happy just being me!
3 comments:
Kenzie :( I bet you are going through a way rough time with all your close friends getting engaged and such. You are beautiful, and don't stress about the dating thing, your time will come, maybe right now its not in the plan for you to be serious with anyone, maybe right now is a good time for you to be a free spirit and enjoy having fun in the college life. Hang in there, I know how lonely it can be when you just want some one there to care for you and love you. I hope the best and hope things get better. Summer is soon!! Maybe something will come up when school gets out. You are the greatest! Chin up!
Oh Kenz, Your self worth should NOT come from whether or not your dating (or, when you date, the person you're dating/validation from the person you're dating). You don't have to be in a relationship for your life to have meaning-live in the present moment and ENJOY! It doesn't matter how 'beautiful' you are, how thin/fat/tall/short you are, smart you are. Men worth your time are looking at the heart of a woman. They are looking for meekness, kindness, selflessness, self-respect in a woman (qualities very few 19-year-old girls have). From the looks of your blog, you seem very concerned about the superficial things in life. Just be YOU. God will work the rest out :)
I totally know how you feel Kenzie!
I'm single, a freshmen, AND I go to BYU.
haha I promise that it's possible. We are both living testaments to this. :)
But, no worries. Maybe it's because you live off campus and don't see much of it but living here as a freshmen makes me see that more girls don't have boyfriends, than do.
I saw you walking around campus the other day and didn't even recognize you. You look good girl! Your hair looks great!
Whoever does get you is a lucky man!
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